I am made of a different mold
I am not of this family
For I was formed from tainted light
And my skin is bleeding mercury
Leaves are falling from the trees
As cells fall from my empty head
Each day I grow a little closer to sanity
And no amount of pills
Or excuses
Can save me from this fate
You label me as borderline
You tell me things will be ok if I just work
But you cant save a brain that is self destructing
And you cant save a child who is determined to die
I am crying on the inside
Steel tears are falling from my eyes
And I am whispering to a lifeless doll
Telling her every secret that I hold dear
The shattered glass of reason lies before me in a wounded heap
And I am singing to the crystal pieces
Begging them to tear me apart
Im caught in a mirror
Watching you through wary eyes
Waiting for the moment when you will come to your senses
And run away from this girl gone wild
When you werent looking
Never let your guard down
My eyes are darting around the room
Searching for the latch that will let me out of this box
The sides are closing in on me and I cannot breath
What did I do to deserve such a fate?
I am counting the rings around my eyes
Counting the veins in my wrists
Looking for that magic number
That will set me free from this place
I learned the truth at sixteen
And now I will never be the same
Things cannot be changed with a prescription
Time doesnt heal all wounds
Hours of therapy wont change your thought pattern
And now I am floating through the air like a kite gone awry
When I hit the sun youll let go of the string
Dont you wish you had had an abortion, Mother?
Dont you ask God everyday, pleading with him to give you another child
Someone normal
Someone whole
Someone whos brain hasnt turned against her in an act of defiance?
Scars and ashes
Tattoos and dust
I am leaning against walls
Pushing them away to find open space
But I dont know which way to turn
Can you help me?
What do you see when you look at me?
Smeared eyeliner
Messy hair
An anxious look thats not quite right
A hint of something wrong
Some people dont go crazy
Some of us were just born this way
Hold the pillow against my face
And smother me with good intent
I am shivering in the heat of your caring
Ripping my bones away from my body
Crumbling into a pile of flesh
Can you hear the silent screams?
I am your dark daughter
Wishing on invisible stars
Talking to forgotten spirits
Singing my lullaby to anyone who will listen
I am all the mistakes youve made
I am what you cant undo
I am something you can never give back
And if you ask me Ill keep telling you Im fine
So just dont ask
For I am gone, Mother
I am gone
I am not of this family
For I was formed from tainted light
And my skin is bleeding mercury
Leaves are falling from the trees
As cells fall from my empty head
Each day I grow a little closer to sanity
And no amount of pills
Or excuses
Can save me from this fate
You label me as borderline
You tell me things will be ok if I just work
But you cant save a brain that is self destructing
And you cant save a child who is determined to die
I am crying on the inside
Steel tears are falling from my eyes
And I am whispering to a lifeless doll
Telling her every secret that I hold dear
The shattered glass of reason lies before me in a wounded heap
And I am singing to the crystal pieces
Begging them to tear me apart
Im caught in a mirror
Watching you through wary eyes
Waiting for the moment when you will come to your senses
And run away from this girl gone wild
When you werent looking
Never let your guard down
My eyes are darting around the room
Searching for the latch that will let me out of this box
The sides are closing in on me and I cannot breath
What did I do to deserve such a fate?
I am counting the rings around my eyes
Counting the veins in my wrists
Looking for that magic number
That will set me free from this place
I learned the truth at sixteen
And now I will never be the same
Things cannot be changed with a prescription
Time doesnt heal all wounds
Hours of therapy wont change your thought pattern
And now I am floating through the air like a kite gone awry
When I hit the sun youll let go of the string
Dont you wish you had had an abortion, Mother?
Dont you ask God everyday, pleading with him to give you another child
Someone normal
Someone whole
Someone whos brain hasnt turned against her in an act of defiance?
Scars and ashes
Tattoos and dust
I am leaning against walls
Pushing them away to find open space
But I dont know which way to turn
Can you help me?
What do you see when you look at me?
Smeared eyeliner
Messy hair
An anxious look thats not quite right
A hint of something wrong
Some people dont go crazy
Some of us were just born this way
Hold the pillow against my face
And smother me with good intent
I am shivering in the heat of your caring
Ripping my bones away from my body
Crumbling into a pile of flesh
Can you hear the silent screams?
I am your dark daughter
Wishing on invisible stars
Talking to forgotten spirits
Singing my lullaby to anyone who will listen
I am all the mistakes youve made
I am what you cant undo
I am something you can never give back
And if you ask me Ill keep telling you Im fine
So just dont ask
For I am gone, Mother
I am gone
