I apologize for responding so late everyone, I truly appreciate your kind replies to this poem, and it's always interesting to read how others interpret a poem, isn't it? You all definitely got different views of it, put it all together and it wraps up quite well! I tried to write it with different views and emotions showing throughout. Just a poem, but to me it's negative, it's about pain that will always last. I'm telling "love" that I will always strive in vain, just so that "love" can not have the victory, even though (in my opinion) I will never find love. So i'm battling to spite love.
It sounds like a positive ending, i can see that and that's fine, but it was intended to come across as more of a determined ending, somehow sad and full of pain.
I'm glad you all enjoyed! peace!-Mike